Motherhood Part I

It's been 15 weeks now that I have experienced motherhood. People always asked at the beginning how being a parent or how being a mom is. And my answer was always "hard". The first 6 weeks of life with Parker were dang hard. A) he had jaundice and was in and out of the docs multiple times a week. B) my milk supply wasn't where it needed to be until about 6 weeks so his weight was fluctuating (very stressful) C) exhaustion. tired. weary. Um- so ya that about summed up the first 6 weeks of Parker's life. But what I learned through those first 6 weeks, is that I am not enough for Parker. I would continually beg, pray, ask the Lord to supply all the milk Parker needed, and it wasn't until 6 weeks that we experienced breakthrough. I don't know why the beginning of Parker's life had to be like that, but I do know that it taught me to solely rely on the Lord in every aspect of my life and Parker's life. The Lord cares and wants me to invite him in so that we may experience the breakthrough that we need. And it was so funny how I kept coming to the Lord with "funny" requests, yet, he would respond to me and tell me to "continue to ask of Him". Again and again in the scriptures we see that the Lord delights in giving good gifts to his children! It's his delight to have us ask of Him... for anything! And now that Parker is 3 months old I find myself continually asking the Lord for wisdom, guidance, basically help through this whole motherhood thing. I have nothing to offer or give my son, only that of what the Lord gives me. Apart from Him I have no good thing. This truth is what the Lord has been establishing in me through the journey of motherhood. (And I know there is more to come!)

Thank you Lord for your continual grace, patience, love, and wisdom!

This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him. 1 Jn 5:14&15