Finding Out

I don't believe I ever told this story. Exactly one year ago Zach woke up rather early, 6:00am ish, and said I need to run to Wal-Mart. Very odd, yes, but definitely God's plan. Well that whole week I had been wanting to get a pregnancy test because I knew something was off. I didn't tell anyone and especially not Zach. I was afraid that if I told him he may get his hopes up and then if it was nothing he may be disappointed.

Rewind. At the beginning of 2010 Z and I took the first month to pray about things. One of those things was: when to start a family (as if we have control of that). But just wanted wisdom and wanted to hear God's voice. So to be honest Z was more ready than I was... I was more in the I like just me and you time... I'm not ready yet... I need some time. But as a few months passed and many prayers were said, the Lord worked in my heart and helped me to lay down control and to just trust him. I had secretly made this list of things that I wanted answered though before we started a family. And come to find out- out of the 6 things on the list, I believe all but 1 is answered (how amazing huh??!!!). Anywho, all this to say by April-ish I was like ok, I'll trust God. Oh and the biggest detail is that in January 2010 the Lord had spoken 3 different times (I have it written down on 3 different dates) "January 2011" (crazy!!!huh??!!! I didn't think anything of it once I was pregnant because his due date was Feb 25th so I just thought 'oh I missed it'.)

Fastforward--- so as Z is getting ready for Wal-Mart I ask him to get me a pregnancy test. This didn't throw him off cuz of course the past year or so I had done that a few times.

He comes back...I see the results and immediately start crying! Not out of joy, but out of fear! (how sad huh?!!) Z sees me and is like what is it? And I tell him it's positive, we're going to have a baby. He starts crying. We're both in complete shock and I'm so fearful because all that's running through my mind is practicals--- we only have one car; I don't want to live here; will I have to work; we have so much debt; my family isn't here...yada yada. It is so sneaky and cruel how the enemy's desire is to steal our joy! Instead of praising God for his goodness, my mind went straight to fear and anxiety! Within the next few weeks we told family and friends and the minute we starting telling people it was a complete shift! I felt like I could celebrate and not choose worry or fear, but instead lay down control and trust God's goodness!!!

And now--- one year later we have our bundle of joy, Parker Burton Jones! He is the perfect gift for us and the Lord's timing is always perfect! Thank you Lord for your goodness!!!!

"Behold, children are a gift from the Lord. The fruit of the womb is a reward." PSALMS 127:3